Life ahead of you.

Im amidst poeple eating in class now. And no, its not just normal junkfood. People are eating Tauhway, Macs and some tasty noodles around me and we are in an air-conditioned classroom so the smell of the food is as strong as ever. Great.

Oh yeah, some of my non-Muslim friends actually told me they thought Muslims had to fast continuously for a month. Crazy? By that time I'd probably lost all my thunder thighs and whatever fat left and maybe end up like 45 KG or smth. WOO.

Anyway, life's been hectic.

1) Maths vectors test on Fri
2) Vectors tutorial 10A by Fri, 10B on Tues, 10C by Fri.
3) Math holiday homework & Functions extra qns - not completed
4) 2 Econs Economic Growth essay outlines
5) Econs Revision package
6) PW I&R
7)Chemisty Kinetics tutorial- TMRW
8) Lots of revision not done. 32 chapters of history, 10 chapters of math, 9 chapters for Econs, 6 chapters, i think, of chemistry
9) OFFICIALLY 16 more days left to darned promos! Life's never been in deeper shit before.

My dad gave me a warning saying that I MUST NOT GET RETAINED in the serious tone. But seriously, you think? I'm not being a pessimist or being lazy and obviously not working hard cos Im prepared to fail. Im just being kinda realistic? I told them not to expect too much from me cos if I get retained, then I will get retained irregardless of how much hard work I put into studying. Well, if I really do get retained, Hey! look at the brighter side.Its not the end of the world.

Greatest lesson of the year learnt.

Hari Raya on Sunday..WOOTS! I smell me money and rendang, sambal goreng pengantin, sambal tumis sotong and what nots. Can't wait to see the family babies all grown up & family members.

God = Love

I've been thinking hard these few days and I wonder why we humans are never satisfied with what we are blessed with. Seriously, and I fall that category.

People are never satisfied. They want a prettier face, smaller waistline, house with 2 swimming pools, house with golf course, sleeker car, even sleeker car etc you get my drift, most of it the superficial stuff. Sometimes I wonder have humans, being greedy and selfish, ever asked for a better God? That one kena last warning.

My ultimate aim in life : spiritual enlightenment and ability to travel around the world as a backpacker.

Hello 2015.

Anyway, Ramadhan is coming to an end and I realise that I've let such a blessed month gone to waste.

With the remaining 6 days left,

I pray for strength, endurance and determination and for God to free me from my bad judgement
I pray for God to make me happy with what I'm blessed with
I pray for peace of mind free from anger, jealousy and conceit
I pray for my peace in my family & in this world
I pray for me to be able to pass promos
I pray for his forgiveness, love and blessings.

When you understand God, you understand the world.

Amen.(Y)

SIGNS (Y)

If you see a wall and a flight of stairs, which one will you choose?

I'll choose the stairs of course. Even if I do not know where it will lead me to. Walls are irritating. You will end up sitting there waiting, wishing that some miracle will happen for that wall to crumble and show you the light of day. You end up hungry, exhausted, bored, lonely.

Stairs are better. Even if I can't walk, I can still jump up. And when I'm tired, I'll stop and look out to see the scenic horizon when the stairs goes higher and higher.

Wow, I rock at speaking metaphorically. *Does air guitar dance*

Oh yeah, and its better to climb up the stairs motivatedd by a smile as compared to sitting in front of the wall with someone's unlikable presence facing you from the back. JSHHHHHHHHHAWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!! (Y)

and the rest is history

I just want to run away from everything. Some people think its stupid but maybe I'm just an escapist by nature.

I decided to just come straight to the point. I'm sick of life. I'm sick of doing what I have to do everyday, leading a predictable life with people to define what is good and what is bad, what is failure and what is success.

Give me break. Give yourselves a break. Why do people make our lives on earth to seem like complicated shit when its just so simple in fact. I try to make decisions for myself but the problem is, there are so many things and people and factors that I will have to consider. I hate taking considerations now. Give me my freedom man.

For once I wished there was no school cos I don't see school as important. Don't get me wrong, education is important but school isn't. And surely school is not the only way for you to get your knowledge from. I don't need to be in some stupid fucked up institution to tell me what the definition of success is and what I should do with my life.

Success is not equals to going to university and getting a god damned degree to get a fucking well paid job. But well my friend, that's what society wants you to believe.

I NEED A BREAK. GALALALALALLALALA. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

It doesn't help that its september holidays now cos I have promos to study for. I'm not progressing but instead I'm going crazy with a possibility of turning bipolar, Im having the worst pimple/acne breakouts in my entire life, I feel so tired I could sleep forever and sometimes I wish I might just be better of dead (im not implying to suicide) cos I couldn't care less about all this nonsense happening in my life anymore. I have lost the motivation, optimism, energy, youthfulness and vibrance in my life, thanks to SCHOOL.

I've got issues and I might just end up leading a useless life.

I'm now whining. I just think I might not be cut out for all this education nonsense anymore. GO TO HELL. Why the hell am I learning vectors? I don't even want to learn vectors, but why am I still studying it. Why am I forced to study vectors? WHY THE HELL DOES VECTORS AND ECONOMICS HAVE  TO FORCE ME TO STUDY THEM????? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

URGH.

HALAL MUSIC ANYONE?

a slow update. Teachers' day in NYJC was abit useless. School was record time 2 hours only and aces day was bullshit except for the enjoyable trad dance and performance by NYDP during concert. THEN POOF OFF TO TKGS!

met Ili at the bus stop and we talked & talked abt sch and all cos I was waiting for the mates while she was waiting for Linette and Faith. Then met Nani, Angeline, Mary, Sharifah, Ida, Nade, Tifa, Fifah, shikin, Far, Mira & some juniors and teachers.

I think the best part about going back to TKGS and meeting all the friends is that everything just falls back into place nicely. This whole, surreal feeling like going back into a nice dream and staying youthful with no reservations and for a moment, the world just seems like a nice place with nothing superficial or shallow and no worries about promos.

Ok  i sound so preachy but wth. Sharifah was so emotional she cried when she met every teacher. AND GUESS WHAT. SHE CAN CARRY ME with her hands. this is no excuse for any guy to say I'm heavy.

Mdm Azizan's advice: Study hard then go uni then get boyfriend then study together then graduate then find job then get married then have kids then buy house then buy car then go travel, go hoilday, BE HAPPY.
So cute lah she. I disagree about the order, For me it would be, find job, buy car, go travel, get married, buy house, maybe another car THEN get kids.
Oh yeah, Mrs Tan is pregnant with a Daniel. hahaahaha, our school is having a never-ending baby boom. I'm not surprised if the principal is pregnant again, this time with a Tom, Dick or Harry.We talked alot and apparently most teachers miss our 2008 batch alot.

So then, the 8 of us (me, nade, ida, tifa, fee, shik, far and mira) went to karaoke. Like seriously, it was freaking fun and destressing. We sang old school boyband and malay songs like until we were thirsty. Then went to Raya Bazaar near TKC and went buka and KFC and went home. FUN FUN FUN and I swear I love my besties to the max.

CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT OUTING!!!